Thoughts

As we have all established, I'm spending a lot of time in my head, and its giving me resistance to what my heart is telling me.

I've changed my loving-kindness prayer to include the statement, "May I find my life partner, and accept him into my heart."

What has been happening is that ever since D and I met last Wednesday (one of the guys) things seem to be sweeping fast. He works overnight, so he gets up around noon, and from noon until I go to bed at 11pm we are in constant contact - and I love it. We were both talking yesterday that we feel so comfortable with each other and it feels like we've known each other forever. And we are both looking for our life partners. I have book club on Friday night, and then I'm going over to his place for a date, and we keep talking about how we have all night to talk and just enjoy each other's company. He even made the comment yesterday that he is so excited to be starting this relationship with me. He even said that he thinks we found each other's other-half. And I feel the same way - its not creepy or weird.

But then my brain steps in, plus everything that I've ever stood for or said. Which equates to, "This is moving too fast - you had one freaking date, Amy, you aren't being logical... this is heading for disaster!" "Don't be one of those people who have one date and then think you are a couple, that's kookie and it means BIG trouble down the road."

Then the other side of my brain argues that maybe this is what people are talking about when they say that they knew, from the moment they met, that they were for each other.

As an interesting side-note... I've been getting a lot of messages from my spirit guides. When I was out with F on Sunday for dinner, we went to the bookstore and somehow we got into the Horoscope-ish section. I looked up my karma destiny which mentioned that I am on the path for understanding and I need to just go with my gut and not think so much. Then I looked up those born on April 29th, which said that we have a capacity for an extra level of love that most don't experience, which is unconditional. However, we need to learn to just accept things when the universe gives it to them, and not question it. Then I went to see David to breathe on Monday night, and the two cards he pulled for me for the spirit guides were Isis and the Ladybug. He read the interpretations which said something like this, "You are wondering if it is too good to be true, and since you attracted something into your life you are unsure of how to keep it. Let go and enjoy it, and just be full of gratitude, that is how you keep it." Then I saw my horoscope for today, which mentioned that I have been doubting, and I just need to learn to accept.

HELLO - wake up and smell the coffee Amy. But I can't help but think, what would other people say if I rushed into something. But who cares, its me, not them! :)